trying again

Today I had a special memory pop into my head...

It was about the covered bridge, and the time I blogged about it, and then my Dad & I commented back and forth about it.  Then, he added a picture to my post, etc.

So, today I was thinking through all of this and realized that was all still here on my blog.

The reason this all means so much to me?  My Dad passed away on May 20th, and I realized that some of our "conversations" were still here for me to read.  I knew his words would bring some comfort to my broken heart.  I was right.  Not only was it WONDERFUL to read his words again, it has also been nice to look back through some of my archives and read some of our fun times together.  This has also reminded me why I blog in the first place, and has inspired me to start up again.  I worry that this will become a hard blog to read for a while, but at the same time am not sure just how much I feel comfortable sharing here.  My emotions are still VERY real & raw.  I know it would help me to share some of it, but I may stick to my personal journal?  Time will tell, I guess.

But for now, I am trying again. 

Starting with today. 

I decided to drive through the covered bridge on the way home from the pool today.  The whole time I was thinking about my Dad & our shared memories of the bridge. 

I was thinking to myself...I just want to talk with him, I want to know everything is okay, I want (NEED) to know that I am going to be okay,  I want to hear the"beautiful ride" song.

 And don't you know... that very song came on the radio right then?  Of course, I start to cry - then I look to the sky.  I am not sure what I was looking for, but I just wanted to acknowledge that I had him on my mind.  The sky was so clear & blue - it was perfect, so I snapped a picture, and thought to myself....I want to remember this moment ♥

*lyrics to the song  "Life Ain't Always Beautiful" by Gary Allen

Life ain't always beautiful
Sometimes it's just plain hard
Life can knock you down, it can break your heart

Life ain't always beautiful
You think you're on your way
And it's just a dead end road at the end of the day

But the struggle makes you stronger
And the changes make you wise
And happiness has it's own way of takin' it sweet time

No, life aint always beautiful
Tears will fall sometimes
Life aint always beautiful
But it's a beautiful ride

Life aint always beautiful
Some days I miss your smile
I get tired of walkin' all these lonely miles

And I wish for just one minute
I could see your pretty face
Guess I can dream, but life dont work that way

But the struggles makes me stronger
And the changes make me wise
And happiness has it's own way of takin' its sweet time

No, life aint always beautiful
But I know I'll be fine
Hey, life aint always beautiful
But its a beautiful ride
What a beautiful ride

Comments

[Suzanne]

"still" here for you angi, still reading and listening.

[bzymom13]

thanks Suzanne!

[Gina]

{{{hugs}}}Angi. I love that you shared the photo of the sky...it was a beautiful day! How wonderful that just when you needed it, some comfort was there?

[Heather]

What an awesome blog Angi! I never thought about all these conversations that we have online staying there after a person is gone. And that song is really amazing and perfect for you! I don't know that I've ever heard it but the lyrics are right on.
I'm becoming your follower since you're one of mine so give me more to read. :) Love ya!