Today I woke up knowing that I need to work on something, can you guess what that might be? Yep, this negative attitude that has replaced my positive one. I want it GONE!!
I know alot of it is that I am t-i-r-e-d, and that I am so busy that at times I just focus on all of things I HAVE to do. I forget that I actually want/like to do alot of these things. One example off the top of my head is bathtime, I love giving my kiddos a bath and seeing them play together. Ellie & Zander that is, Kaden is "too big" now and takes showers at night alone, LOL! Anyway, even bath times have become a "chore" these days. All in the way I am looking at it though, I think.
I just need to R-E-L-A-X and just enjoy things and not worry about what "needs" to be done. If I am not showered/house not clean, does it really effect our lives?? I know it does not, so I am going to try to remind myself of this...often! If we have pb&j for lunch everyday this week, we will survive! If my Christmas tree is still up this time next week ~ it is OKAY :)
I know someone out there is thinking "GET OFF THE COMPUTER and it would get done" but I must say that my computer time is my sanity at the moment. I am not doing much else for myself (other than a daily shower, LOL) so I am due some MAJOR "me time" and the computer is just that. It allows the kids some free time too. They just play in the toy room or watch a little tv... right now they are playing with Zander's new Little People Zoo (too cute!! but LOTS of pieces) and it reminds me of the prayer that was in my MOPS newsletter I read this AM:
Prayer From a Mother's HeartDear God, help my children to value each other not only as siblings but as friends.
It is a pretty sun-shiny day and this (double crystal version) is in the window. My Mom bought it for me last Christmas because I have always loved rainbows. She will still call me everytime she sees a rainbow & I rush outside to find it :) We have it hanging in the front window and we LOVE it on sunny days like today, as it fills our house with rainbows. Today Ellie was chasing them around & trying to catch them ~ it was very cute.
Okay, I have to get to that shower while Ava is napping (thank God for swings!!) and get the kiddos some lunch. And yes, it will be a late lunch for us...but it is OKAY :)
great prayer!!!
i know what you mean. being pregnant makes me ultra grumpy, even tho i'm happy as can be! lol.
hugs!
Posted by: blessedmama | January 02, 2007 at 01:05 PM
Forget the house and forget the laundry. Your sanity is worth more than any of that. Just relax whenever you want to or should I say can..its so hard with a newborn. Hey thats why mine is screaming on the bed behind me as I type. Sometimes even I have to ignore the crying or I would never get anything done for me too. Only for a couple minutes tho:) I am sorry you arent as happy as you want to be right now. I totally understand that.
Posted by: Lisa | January 02, 2007 at 01:46 PM
That prayer couldn't come in a better time for me, thank you :)
Posted by: Adriana | January 03, 2007 at 01:37 AM