DO NOT pray that I'll be patient, as I've heard you should never pray for patience, or you will be tested :) and I do not want any more TEST of patience at this point!!!
But just send me some be nice, she WILL come, just wait on her, be patient kind of thoughts. I thought I was doing okay, but after this weekend of contracting (again) and being SURE that the full moon would help, today as I left the Dr office, I just cried.
I am now 4 cm dialted, and it seems to mean nothing to my Dr, and I asked (stupid me) how long PAST my due date he would allow me to go, and he says a week...UGH! Stupid thing is, I am not even due until next Tuesday, so I am not sure why I am acting today as if I am a week overdue already, LOL!?
I think maybe because the dreaded phone calls have began...
- you're still pregnant right?
- I was hoping you did not answer
- today would be a perfect day to have a baby
- anything new happening?
- how are you feeling?
- you are 4 cm and the Dr did not admit you!?!?
And if you do not answer, which happened today while I was napping, people keep calling!?! Umm...I am not answering because I am ASLEEP...or I WAS asleep...Grrrrrr!
I was also upset by the fact that when they set my next appt for Monday, they scheduled an ultrasound and a NST (non stress test), to make sure baby was doing okay. Can't you just take her before it gets to the point of needing tests to make sure she is still doing okay!?! That scares me to death, to be honest.
Regardless, I just obviously need to relax, and know she will come and I will forget I ever felt like this...right??
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